Change?

So here I am..once again; desperately needing sleep but not tired enough to even try yet. Today was another really good day. Eva and I went to see "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" and it was sooo good! I recommend it to anyone. I definitely want to buy it when it comes out on DVD. So good! Anyways, then Eva and I went to figure out my hours at work, and then to visit Trey at Apple. Then we we went and bought food for din and hair dye. We made delicious pasta with greek feta salad dressing, artichokes, olives, mozzarella and tomatoes. It was so delicious! Then Eva helped me dye my hair! I'd been wanting to make a change for a while. I just get so bored with things sometimes... Which is weird. Because I generally HATE change. With a passion. But there are some things that I just get so bored with that I have to change them. This got my thinking...I'm really weird. I absolutely can't wait to move in at State, start school, and get away from home. But at the same time, I don't want anything to change. I've gotten so accustomed to having my parents around to help me with things, being able to hang out with all my friends from home, and lounge by the pool whenever I wanted. It's also such a weird feeling for me to think that I'm going BACK  to college. And yet, I'm completely starting over. Of course I am super super lucky that I already have TWO of my best friends at State, and I love my roommate...but I can't help but think about how much I really am going to miss going back to App and living with Jessie in the L. Not to mention the fact that I know my relationships with Trey and Eva won't be anything like what I'm used to at home. They have their own friends who expect them to be with them all of the time and to act a certain way...etc. This makes me so nervous. I don't want things to change between any of us, I don't want to have to adjust. I know it's the mature thing to do. But maybe I'm just not ready to do that yet.

I guess I just have accept and give gratitude for the fact that I have amazing friends who will always love me no matter what. And that whatever happens at school, that will never change.