Damien Rice.

So, today was kind of a horrible day. I won't go into details..it was just a bad day. Or...morning and night rather. The in between wasn't too bad. And I have Eva to thank for that.

I had a really rough morning, and absolutely no one was at school for me to go to. So I texted Eva and asked her to come back a little earlier because I needed her. Everyone needs a friend like Eva- the kind that will drop everything for you when you need them. 

So anyways, Eva came back to school and picked me up- she even had a silly present for me. What would a girl be without some chocolate, jelly beans, and diamond lipgloss? The bag and tissue paper were really awesome too. We drove around to find a place for me to get my haircut- which always makes me feel really great for some reason. And this was definitely an adventure. We ended up at a Great Clips where this lady with a gold tooth cut my hair crooked. It was awesome. Then we went to Barnes and Noble (which we decided is waayy better than Borders) and Eva bought me the first Twighlight book! She is determined that I will become as obsessed with them as she is so she'll have someone to share them with. We couldn't find the teen section but we didn't want to ask someone because that takes away all the fun of perusing a bookstore. We did finally succumb to asking though- we were looking on the opposite side of the store...

After that we found this awesome mexican restaurant that I can't remember the name of- but we are definitely taking everyone back to it. We decided it would be really fun with a group of people to sit on the patio. We talked about life and friends and everything...it was one of "those" conversations that you always remember. The kind where bonding happens and everything feels perfect.

After dinner we went back to the dorms, I took a lovely nap and then took a bath and listened to Damien Rice. Which is always amazing. But then I started getting kind of down again. luckily Morgan came home and we talked for a while which made me feel better. And then Trey finally came back which was good.

I've noticed that I feel really uncomfortable with girls I don't know. It doesn't bother me as much with guys. But I always feel like girls are instantly judging me in a new situation like a party. And I feel bad because then I probably give off a bad vibe- but I can't help it sometimes. I don't really know how to act, I didn't ever do that type of thing in high school. And now I feel like I'm permanently defective in that area. 

I want to cry. Again. And I don't really have a reason anymore, I just feel like nothing is going right. Everything is wrong.

Or maybe it's just because I'm listening to Damien Rice again and I never got to talk to Trey which always makes me feel better. Who knows. I'm acting like such a drama queen. I'm done.

Those are most of my thoughts for tonight. I'm going to go start my book now! I love new books, they're so great. And hopefully i'll fall asleep soon since I have to get up at 7:30am. Ick.